literature

Last Night on Earth

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1CrazyVegetarian

Published: Feb 7, 2012

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Literature Text

these last broken shards of You are all i have left

are enough to make my hands tremble when i see You

because they each capture the piercing, fragmented light that dances in Your eyes

and rain down the shrapnel, the distorted memories that drown me

if i asked, You'd probably just smile gently and claim to be protecting me

by snipping my weak words from Your serrated life

with blunt scissors

and although i can't exactly say it's Your fault for not trusting me

it still hurts

because She has a whole pile of You

and You took care to round off the edges for Her, and file down the corners

so She couldn’t tear the fabric of Her lacy paper fingers

it’s silver snowflake confetti, and She tosses a handful in the air

and i watch entranced as she catches it on Her perfect crimson lips

melts it in Her bleeding tongue

dances in it

and Her bare feet are bloody, Her hands screaming and raw from stray bits of glass

but i’m still

jealous

because You left Her with enough of You

to last Her a lifetime

because She can still hold You whenever She’d like without You melting away, and

maybe You'll even let Her help You

fit the pieces back together

i refuse to let go, though

because i fear when the next snowfall comes

i will numbly fade away, unnoticed

and Your arms will become a vacant hotel

and Your heart will become a paper mache box

for my transparent soul to hide in

so i clench my fists tighter

because i am ignorant

because there is still a fragment left of me

that lives for the hope that i can return

the pieces to You someday

that by feeling this pain alongside You, i can somehow make You

and I

Whole

but even when i die, i’ll die stubborn

with the shards digging and cutting and engraving

Your Name forever deeper into these hands, this

soul

and as i watch the world burn quietly

upside-down in the reflection of Your eyes

in the reflection of my broken pieces of You

my blood will cement you safe in my palm forever

and i will make sure to leave with you pressed close to my

heart

"and as i watch the world burn quietly
upside-down in the reflection of Your eyes,
in the reflection of my broken pieces of You"

^Really like that line, heheh

Hey guys~
Sorry I've still been rather neglectful for thank-you's and replies lately...=.=" This is just something I've been sort of piecing together for

's Valentine's Day contest centering around the theme "love." It could really be anything regarding that topic. I really wish I would've found out about this sooner so I could've done a better job or picked a better topic, like nature, or music, or something a little less weighty, but this is just where my mind landed! x'D I just saw the contest a couple days ago, and the deadline is February 7th, so I'm really running out of time!

I doubt I'll place or anything, but I had this idea kind of in the works for a while anyway, so I'll just post this one, and maybe revise it later. Please feel free to give me lots of constructive criticism, or tell me what you think I need to take out/put in/ re-word. The feedback's nice.

Please don't try to correct me on punctuation, though, haha! x'D There is a pattern, and it IS intentional.

It's kind of long and wordy because I didn't have too much time to chop things down like I usually do, so sorry it reads more like a story than a poem. I guess that's kind of the point of this one, though. Think of a sort of post-apocalyptic love-sick diary entry. Sort of thing.
It shifted meaning a little from what I originally intended, so I guess it starts somewhat mournful and reflective, then there's weakness and fear, and finally urgency. Which I suppose, is sort of the feel of "love" to me, in the sense that the fear of loss of ourselves, or the people we care about (friends, family, loves) can motivate us to do or say things we normally wouldn't have the courage (or the stupidity, in some cases) to do or say. I couldn't think of a title, so I decided on "Last Night on Earth," inspired by a song by my favorite band, Green Day. This song really meant a lot to me for awhile, but then I kind of felt this loss of "ownership" of it, so it's not quite as important to me anymore. Still a beautiful song though, and I think it kind of parallels some of the feelings here.
Especially these last few lines in the song:

"My beating heart belongs to you.
I walked for miles 'till I found you.
I'm here to honor you.
If I lose everything in the fire,
did I ever make it through?"

I mean, what greater sense of urgency, than being limited to your last dying breath, yes?

Anyway, thanks for always listening to my brain gunk, you guys!